Found it

And its bloody green!

TITLE GRIEF

Ok now I am pissed. Firstly I get grief for not using the title section when writing a post....then when I go to actually use it...it's not there. I completely got jibbed. Screwed over! Spat on! There is NO place to add my title. What is going on....?? I suppose there is some cryptic HTML code I could use to add it in...but we all know I've got FAT CHANCE of working out how to do that. I feel like someone has invaded my Blog and removed it just to PISS ME RIGHT OFF...TO TIP ME OVER THE EDGE!!!!! THOSE BASTARDS!

A Personal Relationship with God:


Hmmm what is this really. Quiet times three times a day. We all know this is not necessarily making you any more like Jesus in your heart. In fact it might even be turning you into a 'Church Land' freak. No offence meant. This is something I wrestle with continually. How do we actually have a personal connection with Jesus. I mean it is what we use to argue against Islam, "Your God is distance, our God is personal". But how does that look? Should I just settle for, 'being able to pray where I like', 'knowing my God is loving', 'knowing I can read the bible whenever and wherever' and 'knowing what the right thing to do in my heart'??? Do these things mean a personal relationship with God? I am not convinced.

And please if you really want to reply make it short...I hate reading.

Into the bloger world I go:

This morning I found myself praying and this is something I am usually bad at. I have started to try and have a minute silence just to try and hear God and get away from my own thoughts. This however is quite difficult. Even sitting outside with a cigarette does not help to stop my mind from racing. Its funny, sometimes I have nothing to say in prayer and sometimes I have too much. Usually when it is too much, I just end up rambling on about my own thoughts and desires. How do we stop to just hear what God is saying. A minute silence might help but its not even the tip of the iceberg. Another problem is I am always asking God what more can I do, how much more can I reach people, what else and so so it goes. This might sound great, but really I am take that prayer time and make it all about me and what I can do. Prayer is meant to be a relationship between me and God...and I am not sure how to achieve that. I am not sure how to hear God.

What is the answer?
Stop trying, stand and be still??? If only my mind would stop racing.

Another Issue

Not being from blogger world I found it rather difficult to just magically know which site to go to in order to add in another post. I mean I had my blogs address but of course it would be just too damn easy to add a 'SIGN IN' button on this site. No I had to find some other way to sign in. Thanks to hubby for pointing it out.

Then in good faith, of someone trying to join the blogger world, I try to add my picture in. Of course this can't be easy either. I have to read some big document on how to do it, which of course I did not! I refused! So prehaps there is a element of this photo business being my fault, but honestly!

One other issue that came to my attention, and is not necessarily a negative comment, was that people in Blogger Management must be dickheads, if they think I am going to magically understand this whole template thing. HTML sux arse, it's like learning a new language! But of course I would hate to sound negative about the whole experience. There are some positives...I am able to look forward to the hours of bonding with my husband as he teaches me and whispers HTML sweetness into my ear. Oh the joys!